On Sunday I got a sweet email from Lil' Man's adoptive Mom, thanking me for taking such good care of her son. While it felt good to receive such a compliment, I really don't think I deserve it. After all I am "giving him up."
If anyone deserves a compliment its her. She is committing herself to him FOREVER. Something I am not willing/able to do.
My hat is off to all those parents who adopt children with severe emotional/behavior issues. Sometimes the only thing that has kept me sane during Lil' Man's rage's is the fact that I know this isn't going to last forever. This is not how I am going to spend the rest of my days. As harsh as it may sound its the truth.
The unpredictability of his behaviors takes its toll. I am emotionally spent. I am surprised I don't have high blood pressure (ha ha).
He has been defiant from the moment he opened his eyes today.
Please don't think that I don't love the kid, because I really do. I just dont see how I can parenting him forever while staying sane.
He needs/deserves so much more than we can give him.
I wish there was some magic pill that could make his little brain better.
No magic pills, and it is stressful. Over time I developed patience and perspective. A forever commitment to these kids is not for everyone.
ReplyDeleteOh man, how I wish I had some magic pills for Nate. I can understand what you are saying. I have committed to Nate but there are days that I wonder what I could be thinking. I know we are doing the right thing but I can say, forever is not for everyone.
ReplyDeleteI really respect foster parents that know their limits and do all they can for their foster kids and really love them enough to be able to let them go when they know it's not a good match for their family. You have done a wonderful job with your lil man and you deserve a HUGE Thank You!!!
one of our boys FP said very similar things to me when we adopted them. I don't know how I stay sane every some days, but you just learn to roll with the punches, you change to and so do your expectations.
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