Thursday, April 30, 2009

Is it black or white?

 

I am sitting on the floor of my four year olds room, exhausted.  I sitting here  making sure he stays in bed. He has been throwing a fit for almost two hours .  I am tired, and he is beyond tired.

We have been doing so good, no fit since Sunday.  We have been consistent with our routine, and discipline.   There is no rhyme or reason that I can see for the fits.  I say its white, he says its black, and then goes into a rage.

We show him love, consistency, support, and understanding, and we get hatred in return.  It is hard to care about or love someone who tells you they hate you, who takes the fun out of family time, and always finds away to ruin a good time.

Things were going so good. Last night we had dinner in the back yard. Lil man splashed in the water, and was covered in dirt from head to toe.  Tonight after dinner I  had plans to take him to the park, but those plans were shot to hell as soon as we pulled into the driveway and he refused to get out of the car. It has all went down hill from there.

His dinner sits half eaten on the table.  His school papers and torn into peace's and scattered around the livingroom.  He lays in bed with only a pull up on because he refused to put on his pajamas.

While I not it's not his fault, its hard not to get angry on the inside.  If I could just flip a damn switch and make him all better.  Life would be so much easier for us, and for him.

I want to take him to the park, and the zoo.  I want to do normal kid things with him, but I can't because I cannot reward the negative behavior. I want to take him on a playdate with my "mommy friends", but I can't because he will hit, and tell people to shut up, and not to look at him.  He will steal toys, and running away from me. 

In our foster care classes we are taught to support the birth family.  The case plan is always reunification at first. Our lil man does not get visits with his birth family, and I am thankful for that.

I am angry that his Mother is living footloose, and fancy free. While myself, and my husband are cleaning up her "dirty work"  She should be sitting in jail for causing  permanent brain damage to her child.

For now the fight is over, my lil man is fast asleep. Looking ever so sweet, and innocent. 

another one

 

Little man is doing well, we have not had any tantrums since Sunday!!!! FOUR DAYS! He has decided he likes me better than  the hubby even if I am a little more  strict.  He is doing well in "school". He has a few  accident in his undies, but I guess that is to be expected with everything that is going on. 

I found out that birth mom is expecting, and due again soon, which really pisses me off.  If you have no desire to get the first child back, why in the hell are you creating another one?  I think if a parents rights are terminated, that should be made to have their tubes tied.  Since she has done nothing wrong to the unborn she gets to keep it.

Our case worker told me that since lil mans needs are so high we will not be allowed to take another placement until things settle down.  I am a little PO, because I can handle another child.   I think he would benefit greatly from having someone near his age to play with.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Tea anyone

Yesterday while at Parkers gymnastics class, my friend "S" was sipping on something out of a insulated coffee cup.  She had taken off the lid to drink it, and her lip stick marked the edge of the cup.

It reminded me so much of my Mum, sipping on her up of tea.  She always had a lip stick mark on her cup. I can see her now sitting out side on a blazing hot day, drinking a cup of hot tea, with a cup of water next to it to cool off.

I miss that women!

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Three seats


Tonight was I was driving home from Wal-mart, eating a bag of chocolate chip cookies I glanced in review mirror of my mommy mobile, and laughed at the sight I seen.

Who knew in my mind twenties I would be sporting a mini van full of carseats, and loving every moment of it.  Three boys 4 and under sure keep me busy. No wonder i'm ready for bed and its not even 9pm.

I've got three more seats to fill, in the third row.  Maybe I can talk to hubby into baking a bun in my oven. Triplets?

Monday, April 27, 2009

Celebrate!

Lil man had a wonderful day at daycare today.  His teacher said he was an angel, and very laid back.  I almost chocked...Was she referring to MY lil man?  After "school" we went to the park for an hour.  When we got home lil man went straight to his room to play with his cars while hubby and I made dinner. 

I kept popping into his room reminding him "soon it will be dinner time." "when it dinner time we are going to sit at the table and eat dinner". He came back with the usual "I ain't eating no food" "I wanna play with my cars."

I responded with "your cars will be here when your finished dinner."  Dinner was done, and it was clear he wasn’t ready to join us, so I decided to set a timer.  I set the timer for two minutes, and told him "when the timer rings its time for eat." 

Wouldn't you know that lil man came out of his room, without being prompted as soon as the timer went off!  Dinner went off without a hitch! As did bath time, story time, and bed time.

I even got a hug and kiss good night..

Cheers to a fit free day..woo hoo!

Just a few extra bucks

 

Today my husband called me to let me know that his employer hired another full-time worker.My husband has worked there part-time for over two years, and was not offered the job or the hours. 

He is a hard working, shows up to work on time, and comes home exhausted(physical labor) at the end of the day. He does whatever they ask him, whenever they ask.

The part I am having a hard time digesting is the fact that his father (my father in law) is the superintendent.  Why wouldn't you want to give your kid a leg up in the world?   He isnt looking for a hand out, just the chance to make a few extra bucks to help support his family.

There are something I will never understand and this is one of them.  I would do ANYTHING to help anyone of my loved one if I was able.  Maybe I am too nice.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Here I am once again asking for advice.

 

Our lil man seems to have raging fit every day around the same time (5ish).  I cannot figure out what is causing them to happen. He takes 10 mg of Adrenal twice a day (8am and 1pm is when I have been giving it to him). 

Today he had a massive fit because he did not like what I made for dinner.  His tantrum lasted almost an hour. He was told he did not have to eat any but he had to sit at the table for 2 min's.  This caused him to start tantruming  which included him tearing apart his bedroom, hitting and kicking and shouting all the usual nasties..

When he is in his rage you cannot speak to him, it just makes things worse. You cannot hold him because he just hits and kicks.  I sat in his bedroom door way, and would not let him out until he got himself under control.  Half the contents of his room where thrown at me. 

After 45 min he finally  laid on the bed.  I slowly moved closer until I was at the edge of the bed.  Once at the edge of the bed I started rubbing his back, and asked him if I could give him a hug.

I try to talk to him about what he was so upset but he doesn't seem to "get it", he just kept saying "I was mad at you".

After that he was fine. He sat down at the table ,and ate dinner as if nothing had ever happened.  He cleaned up all of the mess he made without being told. I am at a loss as to how to better handle him.

The rest of the day goes off without a hitch he gets dressed no problem, cleans up, plays very well with his toys, and is easily redirected.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Excited..

About the sandbox I just bought online for lil man..

I have a shopping problem, and my hubby is gonna kill me.

An update

We picked up our lil man on Thursday night you can read more about our adventures in parenthood by visiting our foster care blog A Family for Keeps.

Friday night lil man and I ventured downtown to see the rose parade. We met up with my In laws, and their too little ones Brooke, and Katie.  Lil man was a little overwhelmed by the amount of people at the parade.  He has very interested and would lift his head up off my shoulder to see what was passing by.

This morning we went to a local park, because they were holding a festival  called art in the park.  Lil man rode on a train, bounced on a moonwalk, got a balloon, and did a few more interesting things as well.

The rest of the day was spent doing boring stuff like, grocery and shoe shopping.  Although we did not out for a nice meal for dinner.  Have I told you all how much lil man eat? My goodness, we're gonna go broke!

Who knew..

So far I have been slapped a few times, told to shut up, and had a pair of Thomas shoes thrown at me.  I was told I am mean, and how much lil man hates me.  There is no reasoning, no talking him out of it, you just have to let it go, and be there to comfort him when its all said and done.

He hates his toys, his bedroom, his food, and his new parents.

Comforting someone who hates you, and is pushing your every button is very had.   I don't think I full understood how damaged these children are. 

It's heartbreaking.  It isnt his fault, he wasn't the one that drank so much it damaged his brain.  He didnt asked to be moved from house to house.

After the raging fit, I am his best friend. He wants a hug, and wants me to play with him.  Hopefully over time these behaviors will reduce. 

For now I am off to do more research!

Friday, April 24, 2009

Thanks

I just wanted to say thank you to those of you who have showed your support.  Friends, family, and other foster parents.  You all have helped us greatly with our move from a family of two to three.

Foster parents who have been there and done that have been emailing me all sorts of links, and advice.  It's great!

The greater part of today was spent running around town, filling our paper work, well check at the Drs, and  enrolling lil man in daycare.  I also started the process to have him enrolled in special needs preschool, and hope to hear back from them at the beginning of next week.

He eats a great deal, and is on the go constantly.  We need a bigger house, as well as a bigger fridge!!!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Emotions.

I don't think I am as tough as I thought I was.  I am not one to run around with my emotions on my sleeve, but I had to hold back the tears on the drive home with lil man.

We are IMPACT certified, and have over 30 hours of additional training, but not one class prepared me for tonight.

Lil man was excited to meet us, and drew us some pictures, and showed us the toys he was playing with.  He kept Wayne busy while I was filling out paper work. 

When it was time to leave he did not want to come with us, he wanted to stay with his social worker.  Once in the car, he calmed down. 

We went for something to eat before getting on the highway as it is over an hours drive from our agency to our house. About 20 minutes into the drive he started asking for his "mama" (his old foster Mother).  The asking turned into crying, and the crying turned into a fit. 

He asked us to turn the car around, and take him to his Mama.  At one point he told us how to get to his "mama's" house.

We told him that we were sorry that he missed his mama, and that we were going to take care of him now.

We pulled over, and I sat in the back holding his hand, while singing him some songs.

Once he got to the house, things clamed down.  We introduced him to the cats, and showed him around. He liked his bedroom, and quickly dumped out all the toy!

He played for about 30 minutes, and then went for a quick bath before bed.  We read books, and snuggled for a little bit.

Shortly before bed said "Will you be my mama?", I said "I will love you and take care of you".  He seemed okay with that.

We kissed him good night, and told him we will seem him in the morning, and off to sleep he went.

I am enjoying the honeymoon phase, and hope he remains as sweet as he seems.

dream dream dream..

Last night while sleeping my mind was going a hundred miles a minute.  I don't think I actually got any good sleep.  I was dreaming about my sweet baby girl Teagyn.  We were out and about, and show how Teagyn feel into a lake.  She went under, and I stood there for a minute before reacting (totally not my personality)  By the time I got her out of the water it was too late.  In my dream I preformed CPR on her for over an hour.  I woke up soaking went from sweating, and tired, because I was acting out the dream in my sleep.

I have had several dreams over the years where horrid things have happened to Teagyn.  In all of those dreams I have never been unable to save her.  It's as if some inside guilt it coming out, because I wasn't able to save her from her disease.  No amount of love, money, or prayer could cure her.

Hugs and kisses to my angel up in the sky..Auntie loves you sweet girl.

Today's the day

Last night the hubby and I went out to dinner, as our last night as a married couple with no children.  Pretty scary huh?  I am overly excited about picking up lil man, and wish the day was already over.

I wonder what he looks like

What color are his eyes

What color is his hair

Will he like us?

What type of delays does he have?

What is his background

Does he like cats?

What are his favorite foods?

Can he sing his ABC's?

Is he a good sleeper?

So many questions, and no one to answer them.  I guess only time will tell.

We stayed up late last night reading books on FAS, and searching for resources in our area, that lil man could benefit from.

I will post more later tonight, once lil man is tucked in bed (and hopefully sleeping)

Heart broken

 

I received a packet of information on lil man today, and his "story" just breaks my heart.  To say the system has failed him would be an under statement.  He has been in care since birth, within those four sort years he has been in SIX different foster homes.  Our home will be the seventh place he has lived in FOUR YEARS.  That's almost a new home every 6 months, and they wonder why his issues are getting worse.

He is globally developmental delayed, and has fetal alcohol syndrome (FAS), and ADHD.  He likes to be read to, and enjoys snuggling.  He can be aggressive, and his no fear.  He has dimorphic features due to his FAS.  He attends preschool, and is a very social little boy.

I will admit I am scared that I might be in a little over my head.  But I am not about to give up on him, before we even get started.  He needs consistency , he needs love, he needs rules, and boundaries, in order to help him over come his delays.

How is this allowed to happen in our country?  Why has he been moved from home to home.  Why haven't his parents rights been terminated?

I am off to do some research.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Heart broken

 

I received a packet of information on lil man today, and his "story" just breaks my heart.  To say the system has failed him would be an under statement.  He has been in care since birth, within those four sort years he has been in SIX different foster homes.  Our home will be the seventh place he has lived in FOUR YEARS.  That's almost a new home every 6 months, and they wonder why his issues are getting worse.

He is globally developmental delayed, and has fetal alcohol syndrome (FAS), and ADHD.  He likes to be read to, and enjoys snuggling.  He can be aggressive, and his no fear.  He has dimorphic features due to his FAS.  He attends preschool, and is a very social little boy.

I will admit I am scared that I might be in a little over my head.  But I am not about to give up on him, before we even get started.  He needs consistency , he needs love, he needs rules, and boundaries, in order to help him over come his delays.

How is this allowed to happen in our country?  Why has he been moved from home to home.  Why haven't his parents rights been terminated?

I am off to do some research.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Holy cow..

Only two more days until we pick up lil man.  So many thoughts are running through my head.

I wonder what he looks like

What color are his eyes

What color is his hair

Will he like us?

What type of delays does he have?

What is his background

Does he like cats?

What are his favorite foods?

Can he sing his ABC's?

Is he a good sleeper?

So many questions, and no one to answer them.  I guess only time will tell.

Monday, April 20, 2009

to blog or not to blog

 

I don't think I am going to keep the foster care blog, its too much work to write two different blogs.What do you think?

Stuck

I was doing so well with my weight loss. As of today I am down 31.5lbs, but  have been stuck there for a few weeks.  No thanks to my vacation, and Easter.  All that chocolate, how is a girl supposed to say "no"?  Sadly while on vacation I started drinking soda again.  I am slowly weaning myself back off the junk. 

I need to measure portions at every meal, eat more fruit, cut out snack items, and drink only water.  I have another 30lbs to loose.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

10 Surefire Ways to End a Friendship With a Friend Who Does Foster Care

 

By Carrie Craft, About.com

  1. Tell the foster family how you could never do foster care because you would love the children too much. This way the foster family feels cold hearted as that is the only way anyone could do foster care according to your statement.

  2. Bug the foster family with questions about why the children are not with their birth mom and dad. This is a great way to push the foster family into breaking confidentiality and ruining their reputation as a professional part of the foster care team.
  3. Advise the foster family that the foster child just needs a good spanking to solve behavior problems. The foster family will then feel further overwhelmed not only in dealing with behaviors, but in constantly having to explain and defend discipline choices.
  4. Devalue the foster family's choice to serve the children of the community by criticizing their decision. Explain how you would never do foster care because it brings bad influences into your home and into the lives of your children.
  5. Say things like, "you're too strict", "all the kids need is love," and "you should baby the kids more they've been through so much" undermining the foster parent's ability to make parenting choices for the children within their care.
  6. Refuse to understand the need for the children to have boundaries within relationships and triangulate with the kids every chance you get. Try siding with the kids against the foster parents, they love this!
  7. When the foster parent is venting to you as one of their much needed support systems, say, “I’ve never seen him/her act like that, he/she was perfect for me,” or “I would take him/her in a minute if I could”. This will cause the foster parent to think that they are going crazy and doubt what they are seeing in the child’s behavior.
  8. If the foster child drives you crazy then feel free to tell the foster parents about it. Don’t worry about saying anything rude about the child within their care, it’s not like they are his/her REAL parents anyway. Say things like, “how can you stand that kid?” “ I would have shipped him/her off long ago.” Be sure to complain about the child every chance you get, ignoring any hint of hurt from the foster parent.
  9. Drive home any feelings of ineptness by telling the foster parents how you’d have “that kid straightened out in two weeks." Nothing makes a foster parent feel unsuccessful like comparison of parenting skills. This will cause the foster parents to doubt their parenting ability and to second guess every choice and decision.
  10. Guilt is a very effective tool if you want to destroy someone’s self-worth. Ask the foster parents if they feel terrible about taking away from their own children with their choice of doing foster care. This is even more effective during times of high stress when the foster child is having behavior problems and the family is in crisis mode.

If you follow these 10 easy steps you too could end a perfectly good friendship with your pal who does foster care!

Yes, I’m only kidding with these suggestions, unless of course you do want to lose your foster parenting friend. But these are statements that I, and many of my foster parenting friends, have personally heard from other well-meaning friends and family. I know hurting me or my family was not intended, but I do hope that through this snarky article others can see how simple statements can affect others

10 Surefire Ways to End a Friendship With a Friend Who Does Foster Care

 

By Carrie Craft, About.com

  1. Tell the foster family how you could never do foster care because you would love the children too much. This way the foster family feels cold hearted as that is the only way anyone could do foster care according to your statement.

  2. Bug the foster family with questions about why the children are not with their birth mom and dad. This is a great way to push the foster family into breaking confidentiality and ruining their reputation as a professional part of the foster care team.
  3. Advise the foster family that the foster child just needs a good spanking to solve behavior problems. The foster family will then feel further overwhelmed not only in dealing with behaviors, but in constantly having to explain and defend discipline choices.
  4. Devalue the foster family's choice to serve the children of the community by criticizing their decision. Explain how you would never do foster care because it brings bad influences into your home and into the lives of your children.
  5. Say things like, "you're too strict", "all the kids need is love," and "you should baby the kids more they've been through so much" undermining the foster parent's ability to make parenting choices for the children within their care.
  6. Refuse to understand the need for the children to have boundaries within relationships and triangulate with the kids every chance you get. Try siding with the kids against the foster parents, they love this!
  7. When the foster parent is venting to you as one of their much needed support systems, say, “I’ve never seen him/her act like that, he/she was perfect for me,” or “I would take him/her in a minute if I could”. This will cause the foster parent to think that they are going crazy and doubt what they are seeing in the child’s behavior.
  8. If the foster child drives you crazy then feel free to tell the foster parents about it. Don’t worry about saying anything rude about the child within their care, it’s not like they are his/her REAL parents anyway. Say things like, “how can you stand that kid?” “ I would have shipped him/her off long ago.” Be sure to complain about the child every chance you get, ignoring any hint of hurt from the foster parent.
  9. Drive home any feelings of ineptness by telling the foster parents how you’d have “that kid straightened out in two weeks." Nothing makes a foster parent feel unsuccessful like comparison of parenting skills. This will cause the foster parents to doubt their parenting ability and to second guess every choice and decision.
  10. Guilt is a very effective tool if you want to destroy someone’s self-worth. Ask the foster parents if they feel terrible about taking away from their own children with their choice of doing foster care. This is even more effective during times of high stress when the foster child is having behavior problems and the family is in crisis mode.

If you follow these 10 easy steps you too could end a perfectly good friendship with your pal who does foster care!

Yes, I’m only kidding with these suggestions, unless of course you do want to lose your foster parenting friend. But these are statements that I, and many of my foster parenting friends, have personally heard from other well-meaning friends and family. I know hurting me or my family was not intended, but I do hope that through this snarky article others can see how simple statements can affect others

shopping

 

Yesterday we spent the majority of the day yard sailing.  I got quiet a few deals for lil man.  I got nine pairs of shorts, 1 pair of jeans 5 shirts, and 4 light weight jackets for less than $10!  I also picked up a step 2 lego table for $5.00! 

We put away all of the baby, and girl toys, and rearranged the room.  It looks good! Later today I am going to walmart to see what else I can pick up.

Only four more days..

Friday, April 17, 2009

How time flies..

It has been almost TEN months since we started our foster care journey, last June.  I have had a lot of time to prepare for our first placement, and here we are a week away for getting lil man, and I am totally freaking out.  I have cared for children, since I was 12 years old!  But I have never been a Mother..Never been totally responsible for a little person.  How scary!

I have got daycare in place, I am going to schedule a dr's apt, and an apt to get WIC.  I plan to go yard sailing this weekend to see what goodies I can pick up for him!

How exciting!!

I

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Vacation pics..pt 2

 

We went to the park, and ate one too many ice creams..

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We ate some yummy sea food..

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As well as some apples!

We had one too many drinks..

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We saw a live shark..that was about 6 inches big!

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We ventured to a wild life park.

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Where the animals behaved better than the kids..

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Last but not least..We collected Easter eggs.

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We played cards, sipped on some wine, laughed about old stories.  Jumped on the bounce house, had a tornado scare, and took a few good naps.  All in all we had a great time!

I can't wait to go back to the beach, its nice and relaxing.

Vacation pics

 

I am so thankful that my boss allows us to use her beach home.  Without her allowing us to use her house we would not be able to afford to go as often as we do.  That's just one of the many perks I get from my job!

We hung out on the porch

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Took a lot of pictures!

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Had a wild and crazy dance contest

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Watched a few good movies

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Ventured to the beach

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Its official!

 

We are picking up our first placement this Thursday at 5pm.  A four year old little boy who we will nickname lil man.  How exciting.  I have NOTHING for a 4 yr old boy, time to go shopping!!!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

and the phone rings again..

Yesterday as  I was packing my bags, and heading home I received a phone call from my case worker.  They have a four year old little boy who has ADHD, and is developmentally delayed.   Of course we said "yes!"

He's in a relative placement right now, and needs to be moved soon.  I asked what "soon" meant and she told me by the end of the month.  What?  Your gonna make us wait that long?  If they have a willing loving home, what's the hold up?

So for the next two weeks, we are sitting in limbo.  Just waiting. Giving our agencies past history I wouldn't be surprised if they changed their mind, and place him some place else.  Cause that's the type of shit ass luck we have.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

We"re back..

 

After six sun filled days we're home.  Back to the same old same old.  Vacations are a lot of fun, but there is also a lot of work involved, especially when you have young children.  Packing, unpacking, repacking, and unpacking again, sucks.  I am getting tired just thinking about   Carseats, strollers, booster seats, diapers, wipes, twice the normal amount of clothes, snacks, juice, toys.

Bed early for me tonight.  Will post more about our adventures along with some pictures tomorrow.

night night..

P.s we got a call for a four year old little boy..Given our past luck, I am not getting my hopes up, but keep your fingers crossed

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Hit the road jack..

 

This post is going to be short, I am online using some random person Internet connection.. 

The boy's and I headed to the beach today just after two today. We made it here in five hours.. Not bad timing  considering I was heading south instead of north.

We had a few laughs along the way.

One of the towns we passed through is called Waycross.  Parker said "Does that  mean we are way across the other side form our house"

The baby was having melt down about 3 hours into the ride, I turned on some music with a heavy beat, that kept in entertained for a good 30 minutes!

Parker burped after sucking down a juice box, and Willie B (who's is 18 months old) said cuse yoo (excuse you) too cute.

My hubby, two sisters, and their little chicks will be heading my way sometime tomorrow. 

I hope the boys sleep in until at least 9am. After all we're at the beach..

classes

 

At our monthly foster care meeting we discussed online training classes for foster parents.  The best one seemed to be Foster Parent college.  For eight dollars you can take a 2 hour class on various subjects from RAD to ADHD, for caring for children with special needs.

The classes are CASA certified, and most agencies accept the certificate which is good for two training hours!

You don't have to sit at your computer for two hours straight,  You can long in and out. You have 30 day to finish the class.

Happy learning..

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Happy Birthday Mum

 

Another birthday is passing by without you near.  Its hard to understand why.  Please know that not a day goes by that I do not think of you, or speak your name.  You are one in a million.

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Happy Birthday Mum.  It's sure to be the best one yet, Though you left me here.  Did you Think I'd forget?

Your cake this year, will surely be, a beauty to see. Wish the icing made of Silver and the candles made of gold.

Yes your birthday in Heaven is a grad affair. And I know you'll look so lovely with a halo in your hair.

The angels will come from everywhere to sign your birthday song. And I know they'll be so happy that you've joined them In God's happy home.

No I can't send you a card of a gift this year. So I"ll just spend a special prayer, to that wonderful Mum of mine way up there.

Happy Birthday Mum

Lots of love

Karen

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Poem

 

With love from your foster family

Long Before we realized, long before we ever knew, God Prepared a special place within our hears for you.

We welcome you with open arms into our family. We want you to feel safe, and warm and pray that you will see..

Our home can be a resting place where hope and healing grow.  Where caring friends surround you, and you will come to know-

God had a special purpose when He wove our paths together, and no matter where you life may lead You'll stay in our heats forever.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Thinking of you..

 

Today while laying in bed, I was thinking of my sweet girl Teagyn.  The bond that Teagyn, and I shared was unlike anything I have experienced before.  She was perfect in every way.  Not once did she talk back, throw food, or hit someone out of anger.  Her sole was pure, and she was as sweet as can be.

She was never able to tell me she loved,me or give me a hug.  But I knew from those big brown eyes, that she knew how much she meant to me.  I could see love in her eyes, and happiness all over her face.

I loved to hold Teagyn for hours on end.  To tell her stories, and rub our noses together.

I worry I will forget some of the times we spent together. But it has been four years, and when I close my eyes, I can smell her sweet smell, and see her lovely face.

I love you Teagyn

Thursday, April 2, 2009

nothing to say

 

I am in a blogging rut, nothing to say nothing to blog about.  Life is boring at the moment.  It has been raining non-stop for a week, and its starting to become depressing.

I am still following weight watchers, and am down 32.5 lbs!! 

We are heading out of town next week, to visit family.  I am excited to see my sisters.

No foster placement yet.  We're still waiting for the phone to ring..

Hope all is well with everyone else.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Rain rain go away..

 

Come again another day..Here is out weather forecast..

Thomasville / 36 Hour Forecast

Today
Thunderstorms
High70Low 62
Thunderstorms

Thunderstorms. High around 70F. Winds SE at 10 to 15 mph. 1 to 2 inches of additional rain expected.

Precipitation

100%

Sunrise: 7:24AM

Tonight
Thunderstorms
High70Low 62
Thunderstorms

Thunderstorms - some locally heavy downpours are possible, especially late. Low 62F. Winds light and variable. 1 to 2 inches of rain expected. Locally heavier rainfall possible.

Precipitation

100%

Sunset: 7:55 PM

Tomorrow
Thunderstorms
High74Low62
74
62
Thunderstorms

Thunderstorms. High 74F. Winds S at 10 to 15 mph. Chance of rain 80%. 1 to 2 inches of rain expected.

Precipitation

80%

Sunrise: 7:23 AM

 

 

River Flood Warning

Issued by The National Weather Service

THE FLOOD WARNING CONTINUES FOR THE OCHLOCKONEE RIVER NEAR THOMASVILLE. * UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE...OR UNTIL THE WARNING IS CANCELLED. * AT 9:15 PM TUESDAY THE STAGE WAS 16.9 FEET. * MINOR FLOODING IS OCCURRING AND MINOR FLOODING IS FORECAST. * FLOOD STAGE IS 15.0 FEET. * FORECAST...THE RIVER WILL CONTINUE RISING TO NEAR 19.5 FEET BY EARLY FRIDAY MORNING THEN BEGIN FALLING. * IMPACT...AT 20.0 FEET...SOME HOUSES AND TRAILERS IN THE LOWEST AREAS OF LAKE RIVERSIDE AND STEWARD AVENUE WILL HAVE WATER AT THEIR DOORS. ROAD ACCESS WILL BE COMPLETELY CUT OFF

...THE FLOOD WARNING CONTINUES FOR THE FOLLOWING RIVERS IN GEORGIA...FLORIDA.. OCHLOCKONEE RIVER NEAR THOMASVILLE AFFECTING GRADY AND THOMAS COUNTIES OCHLOCKONEE RIVER NEAR HAVANA AFFECTING GADSDEN AND LEON COUNTIES ...MODERATE FLOODING IS OCCURRING AND EXPECTED TO CONTINUE SAFETY MESSAGE...ALL PERSONS WITH INTEREST ALONG THE RIVER SHOULD MONITOR THE LATEST FORECASTS...AND BE PREPARED TO TAKE NECESSARY PRECAUTIONS TO PROTECT LIFE AND PROPERTY. DO NOT DRIVE CARS THROUGH FLOODED AREAS. IF YOU SEE FLOOD WATERS...REMEMBER TO TURN AROUND AND DO