Tuesday, October 27, 2009

scrap that

I just got off the phone with the doctors office.  The hubby and I are going back tomorrow to go over our options with him.  He cannot guarantee that I will come out of the surgery with one or half of an ovary. So for now the surgery will more than likely be canceled.

We will be visiting a fertility specialists to discuss our options regarding harvesting my eggs.  My head is spinning I wasn't expecting any of this.

I will still need to have surgery soon, because the cyst can rupture, which would cause other problems.

The shitty part is my insurance sucks, it won't cover egg retrieval or egg storage, let alone IVF.

I am not against adopting a child, but I would still love to experience pregnancy and child birth.

I feel like there has been a death in the family.  Am I nuts?


  1. It will all work out. I know its hard and I know your going to be a good mom.

  2. I know JUST how you feel. Like you got the wind knocked out of you. Ugh. I'm pulling for you. I never even thought of egg retrieval. I hope it works!

  3. No way!!! Your not nuts!! thats a totally normal thing to feel!! As a woman who wants a child, when the prospects of having that child are snuffed out, we mourn that!! We mourn the baby we may never have. But you have hope!!! I know it may be expensive, but research grants and "scholarships" by different groups that may help women like you!! I know there are tons of organizations that want to help women have babies who are going through things think cysts or cancers and stuff.
    Ill be praying for you!!

  4. Hugs honey. What your feeling is normal. Your whole lifes outlooks has changed from what you pictured. Hopefully this is just a bump in the road and your days of being pregnant are just around the corner.

  5. I am so sorry you are faced with this news and all the decisions it brings. Wishing you clarity and hope.

  6. No you are not nuts, I mourn that fact almost each and every day, not because I do not love my children but because there is a part of me that longs to feel another life insode of me. I hope that you can find a solution.

  7. Karen you are not nuts! Explore all of your options and talk to more than one surgeon before you have your surgery. I have had nine surgeries now and the most important thing is for you to have 100% confidence in your Dr. and your choices. I have been where you are right now and it sucks! but knowledge is power. Ask tons of questions, give yourself time to think and get second opinions. email if you need to talk.