Ten Today

Happy 10th birthday my sweet sweet Angel. 

Teagyn was born on October 13, 2000 with a rare genetic  peroxisomal disorder by the name of D-bifunctional protein deficiency. Sadly on January 8, 2005 Teagyn lost her battle, and went home to be with God.

Teagyn was the light of our life, in her four short years she endured more, than most adults will in a life time. Despite her illness Teagyn lead a full life, she enjoyed playing with her daycare buddies, and her cousin  Jannae.

She liked painting, going to the park, playing in the backyard, eating chocolate, and of course drinking slurpees. Not a day goes by that her precious face does not cross my mind. I often wonder what she would look like, or what she would be "into" if she were still here on Earth.

 

Birthdays In Heaven

Are there birthdays in Heaven?

Does the angel blow his horn?

Announcing to everybody That this is the day you were born?

Can the stars be your balloons?

And angel food your cake?

Presents wrapped in moonbeams

All the angels helped to make.

Birthdays meant so much to you

They were always a big deal Birthday presents,

lots of friends and perhaps a special meal.

So I'll whisper a little prayer today

Asking everyone up above To sing you a Happy Birthday song

And give you all my love.

Author unknown

Two left feet..

Yesterday out of the blue I came tumbling down.  It appears I tripped over thin air.  My right foot gave way as I was stepping forward which caused me to fall.  Some how my left foot ended up under my rear.

My poor husband freaked as  I lay on the floor with my foot in the air. I was not able to bend any of my toes.  They quickly turned purple, with a nice shade of bluish black mixed in.

To stop my husband from having a heart attack I told him I would go to urgent care. It appears I have severely sprained my foot, as well as all my toes.

I am able to bear weight, with a support boot on. 

Come Thursday hubby and I will be quiet the pair. 

Never a dull moment!

forever!?!

Last night I cried myself to sleep.  As each month passes its getting harder not easier. It seems everyone and their Granny is pregnant.  People ask "how are you doing." I just smile and say "okay" because they really don't want to hear what I have to say.

Since hubby's surgery is this month we're kind of in "limbo". If surgery is successful his count should  be normal by January.  January seems like a lifetime away.

We have waffled back and fourth trying to decided if we should go see the fertility specialist or not. I canceled the appointment we had on Wednesday.  By Thursday I was freaking out over the cancellation.  (NUTS)

It doesn't help that the phone isnt ringing.  Are we not even good enough (in God) eyes to be foster parents?

Lil' Man

Last week I left a message for Lil' Man's worker asking her to give me a call because I still have half of Lil' Mans stuff (she didnt have space in her car for all of it).  I have called several times, because its starting to get cold outside. Most of the stuff I have is winter clothes.  She told me she wont be coming until the end of the month (whatever)

She also told me that he has moved into a foster home (was in several respite homes).  He lives with a family that has their own 10 yr old daughter.  They live on a few acres and have horses.  I bet Lil' Man is enjoying the horses.

His behaviors have no improved.  They put him back on stimulants and he flipped.  He is semi under control at home, but still running away, and raging constantly at school.

Mrs A (the case worker) said that whenever she visits Lil' Man asks "are you here to take me to see K and W (me and hubby).  I regret that we disrupted the placement because he's no better off where he is now. I thought they would follow through with residential and he would get the help he needed. 

A new worker is taking over his case at the end of the month.  I doubt she will be as willing to chat with me about him and his case.  I told Mrs A I wanted our name and address written down and given to the adoptive family.  If and when he gets adopted.

update

 

• We haven't had any other foster care calls
• Hubby's home work is driving me nuts. It consumes ALL of his time.
• Fall weather has finally hit, but its  supposed to be in the high 80's by the end of the week.
• I've been working a lot of over time. The boys parents will both be out of town at the end of the week.  So we're moving into the big house for a few days.
• For Thanksgiving we are meeting my sister (not sure if the other one is coming) at the beach! ROLL on NOV!
• We decided to keep our apt with the fertility specialist.  Our apt is Oct 13th (Teagyn's birthday)
• Hubs surgery is Oct 14th.

Nothing too exciting.  What's going on in your life?

R.I.P

Last week a local military man, Chief Petty Officer Mc  X  was killed in a helicopter crash in southern Afghanistan.  Today his friends, and family said good bye to him with  full military honors.  As the funeral procession made its with the the cemetery, thousands of us line the streets .  We stood waving flags in order to show our respect to his family, and to give our thanks to the400 military men and woman who where in attendance.

Tears rolled down my face as  I caught sight of his family. How proud they must be of their husband and son.

Death leaves a heartache No one can heal; Love leaves a memory No one can steal. RIP

Ava

 

My sweet niece Ava,five weeks old.