Hacked

My computer has been hacked twice in the last two weeks. So if you received an email saying I am selling viagra I promise you i'm not.

no more

We've had several more calls for placements.  We've turned them all down.  I'm not so sure we are going to continue fostering. It isnt all what we thought it would be like.

We were in it for the kids, and clearly the state could care less. Lil' Man continues to be moved from one home to another, due to his extreme behaviors.

Why cant these stupid people see they are causing him more harm, making his behaviors worse, and causing him to have even more attachment issues.

I hate it for him, yet there is nothing we can do. Foster parents opinion doesn't matter.

Out of pocket!

Sorry I haven't been blogging. I finally have my energy back so hopefully I will be blogging more often.

We have had several calls for placements, mostly older children.  We're still not ready to take another child.

We're currently at the beach with P, Willie-B and my niece Jannae.  My sister and nephew  drove down on Wednesday.

We've been chillin at the beach, having dance contests, and shopping!

Still no word on Lil' Man. I think about him often, and wonder what he's up too. I miss that little monkey.

School starts next week.  P will be in full-time, and Willie-B will go two half days.  Not sure what I am going to do on my kid free mornings!

We're heading back home on Sunday

Time to walk down to the ice creams store..

See ya..

feeling down.

A child, born or unborn is a magical creature, a love that is born and not found. They are the true essence of everything that is good and divine.

You need not hold a child in your arms to want to protect them. You need not look at them to know you love them. And you need not birthed them to feel the loss when they are gone.

In life we have a certain order. We are born, we grow, our parents die and our children grow. When that order is upset, our world comes crashing down."

Highlights.

 

• Still haven't heard from Lil' Man's GAL-just another person who doesn't care.
• Greg the mouse is making a clicking noise.  I hope he's okay. As mean as it sounds I am not taking a $2.00 mouse to the vet.
• I still don't feel 100%.  Going to tough it out a few more weeks before seeing the doctor.
• Jannae has been keeping me busy. We've been to a museum, bounce house, the pool, the library, and a lunch date so far this week.
• We got a call about an 8 yr old girl, which we had to turn down.  I hate turning down calls.
• One of my best buddies was in town over night.  We had a great time hanging out!
• I went out with some girl friends last night.  The first time I have been out with friends since we  got Lil' Man-16 months ago.
• Six more days till we go to the beach! WOO HOO!

PTSD

My niece has been sleeping in Lil' Man's old room.  The door to the room is very tightly fitted.  When it opens there is a distinct noise. 

The only time Lil' Man's door was close was a night.  Mainly to keep the cats out, but also to keep him in.  Tonight Jannae went into the room to read.  When she was finished reading she came out of the room.  The noise of the door made me jump. 

The last few days we had him he would not sleep at all.  He was on a high, and would stay up till 3am or wake up every few hours  opening the door each time.

I was exhausted, between dealing with him, and pregnancy hormones. The sound of the door opening took me back there.  I could feel my heart beating faster, and my blood beginning to boil.

Time to break out the sander, and take care of the door. 

Sweet girl

My niece Jannae has been here for almost two weeks now.  She's nine and a half, and is a total pre-teen. 

Its been hotter than hell here so we've been spending a lot of time at the pool.

We've stayed indoors playing with the new puppy (At work not ours)

Went to the aquarium with some friends

Played some games with P and Willie-B

Sweated out buns off at Wild Adventures (it was 99, 111 with the heat index)

 

Got pampered,with pedicures.

And bought a new pet!

Yesterday we visited the pet store where Jannae decided she would like a pet mouse.  So today we went back and got little Greg.

The cats have enjoyed having a mouse in the house!

We've got another 11 days to fill with activities, before we had to the beach for five days.  Then Jannae heads home with a few weeks to spare before school starts!