Smarty pants

Sometimes I wonder what I got myself into.  Lil' Man has been having a hard time since we got him back. Mostly because he was running the show at the respite house.

Do  they license anyone with a clean record to be a foster parent?  When Lil' Man walked into the home we were sitting waiting on him.  He walked in with a value meal, which included a large COKE.  He was up until at least 1am every night (refusing to go to sleep).  He refused to eat anything other than cereal, and Mc D. 

I am not in the mood for his mind games.  Why can't he just behave for two minutes.?  It seems he gets into negative cycles and has a hard time coming out. 

He peed himself again today for the 7th time since Sunday.  When we got home, I told him he needed to put his Pj's on because I was not giving him anymore clean clothes. 

He told me "I am gonna pee in my pajamas, and then you will have to give me clean clothes". "Ahh ha".."Then I am going to hit you with me wet Pj's". 

Such a smart little boy, if only he could channel this negative energy into something positive.

VENT OVER!

How sweet

Is this picture of my sweet baby girl Teagyn?

Too much

We met with the gyno again today.. All of this is too much to take in.  Surgery has been canceled for Friday.  On Monday I am going for a ct-scan, so that the Dr can get a clearer vision of what he is dealing with.

For sure the left ovary has to come out, still 50%, 50% on the right one. He wants to make sure the cysts are benign before we begin with the egg retrieval

I would hate to come out of surgery with no ovaries, and no frozen eggs.  I cannot believe how much egg retrieval costs.

Because of the size of the cysts, they cannot be removed laparoscopically.  There goes my hopes of wearing a bikini one day.. ha ha

spooky!

Lil' Man and the hubby had a blast carving their pumpkin after dinner last night.

scrap that

I just got off the phone with the doctors office.  The hubby and I are going back tomorrow to go over our options with him.  He cannot guarantee that I will come out of the surgery with one or half of an ovary. So for now the surgery will more than likely be canceled.

We will be visiting a fertility specialists to discuss our options regarding harvesting my eggs.  My head is spinning I wasn't expecting any of this.

I will still need to have surgery soon, because the cyst can rupture, which would cause other problems.

The shitty part is my insurance sucks, it won't cover egg retrieval or egg storage, let alone IVF.

I am not against adopting a child, but I would still love to experience pregnancy and child birth.

I feel like there has been a death in the family.  Am I nuts?

Sponsoring

My sister Lesley, needs help! (in more than one way ha ha) She is raising money to support her local children's hospital.  The Children's hospital of the kings daughters was a home way from home for us.

We spent many many months in CHKD during Teagyn's fight for life. Sadly it is also where she passed away.

Would you consider sponsoring my sister in memory of Teagyn?

http://my.e2rm.com/personalPage.aspx?SID=2408164

under the knife

Today I had a doctors appointment to go over my ultra sound results.  I have a softball sized cyst on my left ovary, and one about half the size on the right side.

My left ovary will have to come out, we're hoping to save all of or at least half the right one.  There is a small chance both will have to be removed.

Surgery begins bright and early Friday morning.  Due to the size of the cyst of the left hand side, I am not a candidate for laparosopic surgery so under the knife I go.

Having one ovary does NOT reduce your chance of conceiving naturally. Obviously having only half of one or none, changes things slightly.   If both have to be removed, we will be harvesting my eggs.

Talk about shit luck .  I want nothing more in this world than to carry my husband baby. To feel it kick, and watch it grow.  To wonder who he or she will look like. To find out that might not be possible is kind of hard to swallow.

I know things could be much worse, and I should just be thankful it isnt something terminal. 

Can I get a break? Between Teagyn disease, and my might fight against breast cancer, I am over all this medical drama.